oddments and fascinations
did i tell you i dropped a knife on my foot and caused by dropping it enough nerve damage to keep me off of my board for a month or two, according to the foot specialist? the knife our home’s biggest and most gnarly knife. it fell from the counter and landed on the top of my left foot, leaving a gash. doc says it is “a miracle” i did not cut the tendon that’s right there.
that seems to me a pretty weensy definition of “miracle,” but i’m happy re: the tendon nonetheless.
and then yesterday i had a realization: this particular pain is actually only pain and nothing more. because it is nerve damage, it’s not pain due to a wound or bruise or injury that requires treatment or rest. our central nervous system isn’t exactly our body, is it? so the reality of this pain is a reality detached from the matter of body — my nerves will heal as they heal regardless of my use or nonuse of the foot. which means i can ride my skateboard, it’s just going to hurt like hell.
which means i can ride my skateboard.
(try and tell me this isn’t exactly like getting your heart broken.)
Chad Harbach, The Art of Fielding (via affenlight)